'Spose all was right with the world but couldn't shake the empty feeling that rose with me this morning. Not of fan of things ending. 'Specially a trip like this one. Lived as simple as simple could be for a couple of weeks. Liked that a lot. Hiking the trails filled me with meaning. Nothing I could lay my finger on, just felt right. And now that it's over… well, it's over. Door's closed. 'Bout the only thing to do is plan a canoe trip before the lakes ice over. Get my little world here at the cabin ship shape and head out for a few days. But no LRRP rations. Had enough of them for a lifetime.
Town was still there. Finished my rounds at the post office, Dairy Queen cherry shake in hand to help me find a few pounds I'd left back on the trail. Fistful of bills. Electric, phone - yeah I have a phone, use it a few times each month to check on family - truck insurance. And a fancy envelope from Archie and Lauren. Saw it and knew right away what it was. Holy-moly, they were getting married tomorrow. Guess my plans just changed. Coolers'd have to wait.
Now, this was back in the days when a man wore a suit to a wedding, a funeral or in the box when they buried him. Mine wasn't exactly in style, lapels too narrow, but I sure had one. Dark blue, wool blend, no holes, wrinkles or stains. Even a five spot stashed in a pocket. And a memorial card from Uncle Wilhelm's funeral. "Yeah, though I walk through the valley of death." Uncle Willie was in the Great War and did his share of walking through that valley. Probably crawled through it too.
Didn't have much in the line of dress shirts. Went with a Pendleton, plaid, said I was a man of the north who had little use for fashion but did like quality. No tie. Figured I'd simply button my shirt to the neck. Buffed a coat of Kiwi on my funeral shoes and I was set.
Service wasn't till seven on Saturday evening so I drove down in the morning. Bummed a room from my sister Dora. Drove over with her and her hubby, Ben. Nice service, candle lit and all. Had both a priest and a minister up front. Guessed they were keeping their options open. Options are good. Hard to reopen a door once you've closed and locked it. And believe you me, religions are big on locking doors.
Got a minute with Archie later that night at Lauren's folks house. Like to say we discussed all kinds of profound things but we didn't. How much thought and feeling can you pack into a few seconds? Archie had a big grin on his face. Happy man. I managed to squeeze back the tears, happy for him, sad for me, 'til I stepped outside. Sat with Archie's mom, my sister Mary, on the cement steps out front. Nice night. Summer warm. Bummed a smoke from her. Kools, not my cup of tea but the occasion called for smoke. Mary knew how much the boy meant to me. And I knew how she felt. Archie's not her only child but was her last by more than a dozen years. A glance between us said enough. We exchanged a few meaningless remembrances then simply sat smoking and enjoying the warmth of a late Indian summer evening.
Long drive home on Sunday. Bucked a cold, north wind all the way. By Two Harbors, sleet. Grand Marais, snow. A melting inch on the ground at the cabin. Most of the country'd see this as the arrival of winter. Up here in the Arrowhead it spoke to me of a last canoe trip and spawning lake trout.
Now, this was back in the days when a man wore a suit to a wedding, a funeral or in the box when they buried him. Mine wasn't exactly in style, lapels too narrow, but I sure had one. Dark blue, wool blend, no holes, wrinkles or stains. Even a five spot stashed in a pocket. And a memorial card from Uncle Wilhelm's funeral. "Yeah, though I walk through the valley of death." Uncle Willie was in the Great War and did his share of walking through that valley. Probably crawled through it too.
Didn't have much in the line of dress shirts. Went with a Pendleton, plaid, said I was a man of the north who had little use for fashion but did like quality. No tie. Figured I'd simply button my shirt to the neck. Buffed a coat of Kiwi on my funeral shoes and I was set.
Service wasn't till seven on Saturday evening so I drove down in the morning. Bummed a room from my sister Dora. Drove over with her and her hubby, Ben. Nice service, candle lit and all. Had both a priest and a minister up front. Guessed they were keeping their options open. Options are good. Hard to reopen a door once you've closed and locked it. And believe you me, religions are big on locking doors.
Got a minute with Archie later that night at Lauren's folks house. Like to say we discussed all kinds of profound things but we didn't. How much thought and feeling can you pack into a few seconds? Archie had a big grin on his face. Happy man. I managed to squeeze back the tears, happy for him, sad for me, 'til I stepped outside. Sat with Archie's mom, my sister Mary, on the cement steps out front. Nice night. Summer warm. Bummed a smoke from her. Kools, not my cup of tea but the occasion called for smoke. Mary knew how much the boy meant to me. And I knew how she felt. Archie's not her only child but was her last by more than a dozen years. A glance between us said enough. We exchanged a few meaningless remembrances then simply sat smoking and enjoying the warmth of a late Indian summer evening.
Long drive home on Sunday. Bucked a cold, north wind all the way. By Two Harbors, sleet. Grand Marais, snow. A melting inch on the ground at the cabin. Most of the country'd see this as the arrival of winter. Up here in the Arrowhead it spoke to me of a last canoe trip and spawning lake trout.
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